Stress?

So, last night I mentioned to my husband that I've been breaking out pretty bad lately and it might be from stress. He said, "Why are you stressed?" I said well....(dugh) because of the (hello?) the adoption and waiting to hear if we get to travel. He said, "oh, well you shouldn't let that stress you out." I don't get it most of the time we are on the same page, but man sometimes my husband can throw something like that at me and make me think we aren't even in the same room.

q-tip cleaning

Does anyone else get necrotic when they travel? I don't know what it is but every time I go on a trip I have to have the house clean, and everything put away. Those books that have been sitting out for a month now are top priority on getting put away and we cannot leave until they are back on the shelves. With our adoption trip it's even worse. I have been painting trim, labeling our cd case, and getting the q-tips out for cleaning. Q-tips work really well for cleaning small spaces, like in between the buttons on the refrigerator. My husband rolls his eyes every time he sees me bust them out with a bottle of simple green.

Top Ten Worry Stone Items

Here are the top ten things running through my head that I worry about in being a new mom.

1. we will put the diaper on backwards. Plain and simple. We will do something really obviously incorrect and won't realize we are doing it.

2. she won't be happy. This is huge, I worry about her having problems in teenage year with regards to her adoption. I really want the world for this little girl and hope that she feels loved and happy with herself.

3. food. I worry about what types of food to feed her. What if she's allergic to something. (update: I found this great resource page 2 shows when to switch your baby to different foods)

4. we will spoil her. We are so overwhelmed with love and excitement to bring her home, I worry we will spoil her years down the road.

5. sore muscles. Yes, I worry that after we get her she will get sore muscles. I have to laugh at myself for this one. But really if she spends most of her time in her crib, after we get her she will be out all the time, crawling around, sitting up, etc.

6. finding a babysitter. How the heck do you find a baby sitter when you are new to an area? We have a daycare, but a babysitter is still on the to do list.

7. i'll worry to much. isn't that crazy. I'm worried about worrying. Oh boy, brother I need some help here people!

8. she will miss out on being close to her extended family. We don't live close to our family. This is hard in multiple ways, but having a good career and being able to support our family is equally as important. This isn't an easy one.

9. money. enough said...

10. she will grow up really fast and this moment will be over.

We had a great weekend, almost done with the bathroom, organized the garage, celebrated Tet by going to Vietnamese food and watched a movie. Cannot get much better than that, well, maybe travel approval ;)

Although offices start to open back up on Wednesday in Vietnam our agencies staff is off until next week, and there are multiple families coming in on the 26th so not sure even if our paperwork was ready when we will get our TA. I'm trying to keep my mind off it for now.

The Wait Continues

It's the end of the week in Vietnam, so no news for us before Tet on our travel. It's really hard to not be disappointed. I keep reminding myself we are close, we have a long list of things to do before we travel and March isn't that far away. But all of that doesn't seem to help.

This is one of the hardest and greatest thing I have ever done in my life. There is nothing that compares. I stare at her picture and am thrilled. She is perfect in every way. We are so lucky to be given this opportunity.

The wait, to be continued...

Congratulation to Stephanie and Rachel on there travel approvals! I cannot wait to hear about there trips.

An update went out to our group that more travel approvals will be coming soon. I'm really hoping we are in there, but will see. My birthday is in 3 weeks so that would be such a great birthday gift.

Tomorrow is valentines day, I have nothing for my husband. I know, I'm horrible. I cannot think of anything to get him. I would like to get him something small, but I'm having present block or something.

How do you prepare for something that in a matter of weeks will change your life and you will never be the same? I don't think it's possible. This has been a long road for us and the realization that we are so close is both exciting and nerve racking! I'm so excited to see our daughter and experience Vietnam for ourselves. I have read so many amazing stories of other families trips to Vietnam and cannot wait to see it for myself! I hope we get our travel dates in the coming weeks, I hope they will come by the end of Feb.

We got a lot done around the house this weekend, thanks to the beautiful weather! A true treat during winter in the Northwest.

Happy Birthday little one, 6 months old! Sending a big kiss all the way to Vietnam for you today.

3 months down

Today is 3 months we have been waiting to travel. I cannot believe we made it this far! Mind you we didn't really have a choice but still 3 months! But I'm really to move on and get our travel dates! Cannot wait to bring that baby home :)