Princess

My daughter somehow knows who the Disney princess are. I don't really know how that happened since we don't really watch T.V. I guess she is picking this up from daycare. So now it's all about princesses.

I decided she could pick out a toy for herself at target. After looking at the toys I realize that target has only a few types of toys, baby toy, baby dolls, barbie and 'boy toys'. She went straight to the princesses. I keep having this internal guilt for buying her a Cinderella doll, even though that's the one she wanted. I kept asking if she wanted the snow white doll. After all snow white has brown hair not blond. But no, she wanted the Cinderella doll.

I don't feel quite right about this, it's pretty complex. I don't want to only push the ethnic dolls on her but buying a skinny white doll for my beautiful dark VN toddler seems wrong. I mean really, who is Cinderella. I surely have never met anyone like her! And don't get me starting on Barbie. Now they have different kinds of Barbie. But really they are the after thought not really Barbie. I think it's great but again, seems like an after thought.

So, how do I balance miss skinny and ethnic dolls? Not sure I have figured this out and in the end she might only want the miss skinny anyway, which makes me sad.

Potty Visits

We now have a new favorite pass time, visiting the potty. Our daughter isn't doing anything on the potty, but likes to spend time going to and from the potty. I have spent about five times as much time in the bathroom as I normally do. I think we are getting closer since she asks to go and isn't scared of the potty anymore. Any parents out there have some experience with them actually going on the potty?

parenting

I want to try to get in the habit of posting again, life is so busy but I have found in the past writing is away to slow down and make sense of it all!

So, here it goes.

dinker do is 2 1/5 now, and changing so much. She is a little person. She is so funny and full of laughter and smiles.

I had no idea that being a parent was so hard, I know silly. I thought we would just need to provide loads of love that would some how solve everything. Boy was I wrong. Somehow being a parent seems so straight forward when you aren't one.

We have been having some power struggle, tantrums, and potty issues with are dear sweet daughter. I came to the conclusion that we are still treating her like a baby even thou so is not. This came about after a long conversation with my husband on why things are going badly. I have been trying to think of more and more things for her to do on her own. I think it helps her feel in more empowered. I'm going to stop doing so much for her. Again back to the baby thing, we are doing everything for her.

Yesterday was a horrible day, at pickup she proceeded to have a huge fit, screaming, crying, on the floor you name it, she did it. I picked her up walked to the car and listen to her scream the whole way home. She is persistent. I have to be honest, it's embarrassing. I know I shouldn't be embarrassed. But I feel like I'm being judged as a mom every time she has a super huge meltdown. It's frustrating.

amazon

We do all our shopping on Amazon, and recently got Amazon Prime. WE love it! Everything we order comes to the door in two days no matter the price of the item. I get great deals on stride rite shoes, groceries, etc. This weekend I got 3 pairs of stride rite shoes for 14.99 each!

I saw they are offering a free trial for amazon prime for a few days, check it out!

little shoes

Last night after my daughter went to bed I was downstairs picking up and I saw my shoes on the floor and then to the right of them two little white shoes. I found myself smiling, it's these little reminders that make me slow down and realize how lucky I am to have such a perfect little being in my life.

I have never been an especially lucky person, but I truly do believe I'm blessed to have her in my life. I'm not a religious person at all, but I don't know another word that encompasses the feeling I have for her.

Closer #2

Last time we waiting over three years for Vietnam to reopen and get our referral, but at the end of that long tunnel was a bright shinning star, our daughter. The wait wasn't easy and didn't go away when we saw our daughter for the first time. But each and every day with her is that much sweeter and cannot believe how lucky I have become.

Today we would like a sibling for our daughter, but again Vietnam is closing it's doors to us, the question is for how long this time. Since we have been through this before I know that it can be a long road.

So here I stand in front of another long tunnel, should we stay the course, only time will tell.